Right, I know that Truth or Hex, and pirate ships, and awesome dragons, and nudity are very distracting and interesting, but please hear me out.
I'm tired of it.
I'm tired of all the times I've felt like I'm not as brave as Neville, or as creative as Colin, or as true-to-self as Luna, or as smart as Hermione, or as powerful as Harry, or as pretty as any number of girls I went to school with. And I know it's not that I'm a cowardly, conformist, stupid, weak, ugly little girl, but that people keep trying to make me feel like I am. Especially because of Tom.
And you know what? I don't feel that way when I'm with Tom. I feel smart, and pretty, and clever, and talented, and special, because he gives that to me. I couldn't understand when I was little that he brought out those sides of me, but he did, and now that I have him back, I can have that again. The only time I've felt the bad way with him is when I stopped trusting him and rejected him. Fear is a powerful thing, after all, and I got carried away by it. I was too young to understand what I can understand now. It wouldn't have turned out as awful as it did if I'd just understood. If I'd just trusted and loved, I don't think I would've been dying there in the Chamber of Secrets. Rejecting him was a mistake. But I've grown a lot and I'm ready to finally be with him. You'd have to have had your head in the ground not to know that I've hoped for years that I could somehow be reunited with him, and now that I have been-- however or whyever it happened-- you should be happy for me that I can be happy.
But what gets in the way of that is having my friends judge me because of how they judge him, and belittle me for choosing him, and try to turn me into the cowardly, conformist, stupid, weak, ugly little girl. That's not who I am, and if you're my friend, you wouldn't try to make me be that. It's already cost me my friendship with Harry and I don't want to lose another, but it's not right to stay friends with someone who makes you feel less than yourself.
You don't have to approve of him-- I understand that it's difficult for most of you because of what you confuse him with-- but you need to at least tolerate that I'm with him. Maybe someday you'll understand that he's not the very same as Voldemort. I'm not stupid-- I know he has a Dark side to him, a very Dark side. I'm the one who experienced it, remember? But I've got a Dark side as well, and you forgave me for it before, most of you. Neville even helped save me from it. Tom hasn't had that. He's made choices that aren't very Good, I know that, but that doesn't mean he's doomed to become Voldemort. So maybe try a little understanding that I believe very strongly in the power of love to save us from the Dark impulses we may have. Tom is destined for great things, and I want to be at his side.
I don't know if any of us'll ever get off this train platform and not be permanently dead like Harry claimed, but if we do, you know where I'll be and who I'll be with. If you're my friend, please accept that.
If you need an idea for my upcoming birthday, please try being PLEASANT to Tom. And if you don't mind violence, I wouldn't mind it if someone punched Harry's nose or other body parts. He could use a good punch.